Lately I’ve been thoughtful. Events that have taken place have been reminiscent of the past and my heart has grown a little more. 

On April 13 2012 my sister Jennie gave birth to a still born little girl. I can only imagine the heart ache and disappointment that was brought to her, her husband and four children. On April 18 2012 they laid their little baby girl to rest until it is time to be together again. The service was sweet and innocent and it was a tremendous blessing to be there. The Spirit was strong and tender to the heart, it was beautiful!

During the five days before the memorial service my own heart ached and was my heart strings were plucked. But not for the passing of a child, it was for the loss of time they didn’t get to spend with her on this earth. My heart aches for their sorrow and grief, it aches that they have this to experience, and it aches that they must have this to bear.

But as with everything we experience in this life, I was reminded of all the joy and love that we found along the way in Josh’s passing, that they surely will also. A Savior who has overcome the world, a loving, kind, and merciful Heavenly Father, the tender thoughtful acts of others, and sweet prayers given.  An increase in faith and desire to follow the will of our Father, and small little mercies eyes are open to once again.

I testify that this is not the end, mortality is just a moment in our progression. I know that we all will live again, we all will have the opportunities to share love with those who have already passed from this life. I know that I have a Savior, Jesus Christ, who loves me, who atoned to pay for my sins and who experienced all so that I may look to Him for comfort and strength. I know that I have a Heavenly Father who loves me and has a desire to bless me. I am so grateful for the comfort and care that comes when we choose to trust in Him who knows all.